I felt helpless laying flat on the table, doctors talking in hushed whispers as they hovered around me. I gripped on to my husband’s quivering hand as he sat and sobbed. As the ultrasound wand circled my swollen belly I felt like a lab-rat being inspected from the inside out.
The pictures on the ultrasound screen spoke two different messages: one to the doctors of deformity, illness, malady, dysfunction; the other to me of a precious silhouette with hiccups, clinched fists, cute crossed legs, sweet nose.
The professionals started urging me to take the “best road”, to terminate the pregnancy and get on with life. A baby with Edward’s Syndrome has no hope for survival. They assured me abortion was the best option.
The doctors called my house. The geneticists called my house. Well meaning family called my house. Calling to tell me to take this “best road”.
A doctor told me that it would be hard on hospital staff emotionally to deal with my stillborn baby.
All this pressure was astounding. Married to a husband with a great job, in no medical danger but overrun with pressure to abort my baby. What must the pressure be like for the woman without all my comforts?
Why do I love the ministry of Deeper Still? My heart breaks for those who found themselves in a tighter corner than mine and decided to abort. I know the grief of losing a baby that society gives no worth and the silence and empty arms that follow the pregnancy. I can relate to the pressure felt from those most respected in our culture.
I do know that this is Christ’s specialty….setting the prisoner free, complete healing and wholeness found through Christ alone. This Easter season we celebrate Christ and His power to overcome the grave. Please allow Him to do His special, redeeming work in you, to go deeper still and set you free.
Deeper Still is here to help your abortion-wounded heart. They will help you find healing, true joy, and lasting freedom through Christ. Please, take the first step and sign up for a retreat.
Our team is here to cheer you on, to point you to lasting freedom found only through Christ.
So just as sin ruled over all people and brought them to death, now God’s wonderful kindness rules instead, giving us right standing with God and resulting in eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord. Romans 5:21
In Christ alone,
Tara Dovenbarger’s deepest longing is to lead moms to never give up their faith when life pours forth hardship. Her speaking testifies of God’s faithfulness through her own loss of a child, near loss of another and painful years of marriage. Her story encourages others to tightly grip their faith in Christ during life’s painful circumstances. She lives in Knoxville, TN with her husband of 18 years and four children, is a freelance writer for The M.O.M. Initiative and her own blog. You can read more of her ministry at www.taradovenbarger.com and watch her testimony here.